a pleasant comeback?

after ten dry months, at last, may mapipiga ng creative juices or potent ideas from me... enough to write about things that annoyed me and will eventually annoy others.

i wasn't able to publish entries since 2008 but i'll try to bring in a breath of fresh air here in my site.

kung ang mga negative thoughts ko ang entries dito..will u consider those as a breath of fresh air? we'll see.


dami akong ike-kwento. yung escapades ko sa other countries and the people there who have made an irritated gesture and whom i have cursed in return..ang mga races na nag-force sa akin maging racist, ang mga BPO or call center agents na nagtulak sa akin maging seasoned heckler, mga taong ayaw mo ng mag-exist pero nandyan pa rin and keep on pestering you each single day.. and more...wtf!

my blog site is not an online black book. it is not created to curse. (at the back of my head), there are times..maybe..

it is just a form of escape while i wander sa loob ng isang environment na di likeable lahat ng tao. we all believe in diversity but i don't strive to please everyone in order to fit in. wala n ako sa stage para mag-standout. i want to do my own thing alone or with the people i like.

i hope this site will not promote negative thoughts. purely observations lang ng good and bad sa tao, sa group of people and to any institution.

i am the obervant type of guy. silent type pero killer ang opinion. beware.

my granny is my mommy

sabi ko nga sa friendster account ko, im the ultimate lola's boy. nalimutan ko nga batiin sya last mother's day.. hindi kasi ako palabati. but i know alam nya kung gaano sya kahalaga sa akin. sya ang magulang ko. mas naniniwala ako sa kanya kesa sa parents ko. sya rin ang contact person in case of emergency at sole recipient ng mga insurances ko (life and accident)..

ang lola ko ang pinakamasungit na lola samantalang ako naman ang pinakamasungit na anak, kapatid, ka-opisina, kaibigan, batchmate, kapitbahay at acquaintance. hehehe. balanse lang kami.. pareho kaming kina-iilagan ng mga tao..

we jive well. wala kaming di pinalalampas na bagay. for us, kapag mali.. talagang mali.. kapag tama or may point, we give way..kapag ayaw namin, walang kalulugaran sa buhay namin ang isang tao or bagay..

im sure super sad sya kapg nasa abroad na ako.. well, i'll make bawi na lang by sending her a lot of perfumes, necklaces and pictures of mine..

she collects all my momentos kasi..certificates, medals, important documents, albums, etc..kaya nga sya ang pouint person kpg emergency at syempre sya rin ang recipient ko kung anu man ang extenuated circumstance na mangyari sa akin..

my lola's the best. ang dami nyang sacrifices for me. hind i ko kayang bumawi this time..i hope masimulan ko ng bumawi kahit d i pa nya i-require. it's payback time for me..

ang nanay ko at ang dammam city...

2am. katatapos ko lng makipag-usap sa nanay ko using YM. nasa china sya nag-wowork for over a year na. madalas e nalalaman ko n lng na nagpunta sya kahapon sa malaysia, sa nepal nung nakaraang linggo at sa singapore next week. jetsetter sya e.

executive secretary ang job nya. ang boss nya ay hindi chinese kundi isang south african na mukhang alumni ng chang kai shek..

bihira mangyari ang conversation na gaya nito. dahil madalas may cold war kami. the typical lola's boy na walang makasundo ni isang parent...

gusto na nya akong mag-abroad dahil wala na raw nangyari sa buhay ko d2. syempre di nya alam ang progreso ko as BPO slave. gusto n nya akong magpunta kahit saan basta wag lang ako maging stagnant d2. paano nya nalaman? stagnant lifestyle pwede pero career wise...ay stagnant nga..

ok lng naman ako d2. i earn every 15th and 30th of the month. tapos may incentive kpg nagpreform me. may 13th month..enough na rin sa isang single yuppie na super addict sa team manila products, tumawag sa friends instead of texting using my Globe plan, pure vanilla ng coffee bean at regular dining experience sa resto na trip naming kainan. hindi ako maluho....masyado.. medyo lang.

back to the overseas job thing, she wants me to be elsewhere. i just passed the final interview for an internal auditor for ISO post..kaya lng sa dammam city in saudi arabia.. medyo natakot ako e.. employer ko jordanian...mga subordinates ko pakistani and indians..hindi ako racist pero kailangan ko ng support group.. first time ko mag-isa at hindi pa mga pinoy kasama ko...and the smell.. may rhinitis kaya ako..

as per the HR Manager who interviewed me, i have nothing to worry about. i will be staying naman daw with some filipinos sa accomodation na-ipo-provide nila. ayaw nya akong isama sa mga subordiantes ko dahil neat freak daw ang pinoy..form of relief? hindi pa rin e.

ang daming naglalaro sa isip ko..bka ma-rape ako at mapilahan ng mga arabo, bka makulong ako dahil sa pagiging clumpsy ko, bka makabangga ko ang employers ko at mga kasama ko dahil nagmukha akong racist due to my rhinitis at marami pang iba..

bka di ko matagalan ang 3 years contract coz ma-mimiss ko ang coffee bean, ang malls at mga amoy malinis na filipino friends at relatives ko..til now wala pa me final decision.. bka next week final na coz magpapamedical na ako..

Si Ultimate Hunky Na Hearthrob Pa (HNHP)..at ang Sandwich Method of Flirting

si ultimate hearthrob ay isa sa mga pinakamalapit kong kaibigan. considered as my current bestfriend. almost three years na kaming open sa isa't isa at sya ang aking secret keeper.. lahat ng details about me e alam nya.

Eto ang dilemma nya: torn sya sa tatlong taong handang bihagin ang puso nya. di nya alam kung sinong pipiliin. ang sabi ko choose the best one. sabi naman nya e paano sya pipili lahat ay may sablay.

sabi ko naman e di get another set of options. sabi nya e ayaw n muna nya ng complications. na-overwhelmed ang PA-hunk kong kaibigan.

ang suggestion ko sa kanya, hayaan nya lng yung tatlo. just enjoy the special treament coz it will pass naman eventually.

pero mukhang malabo coz medyo potential stalker at dominante yung isa, yung 2nd medyo feeler na sexy at long legged kahit di pretty, yung third feeler na pretty at marketable kahit parang maid ang body morphology, yung ikaapat..merong ikaapat? yup. there is. pero di nya pa kilala. type nya lang at di nya alam kung papano kilalanin.

advise ko sa kanya e gamitin nya ang sandwich strategy. isa itong method of flirting without using a single word. it is purely action and proper coordination, usage and utilization of one's eyes, brows, lips and legs..plus pa-inonsenteng smile...lately nya lang natutunan ang bagong art of flirting. hindi pa nya master at pilit nyang maging familiar.

hope matutunan nya na ang mga strategies although bago pa lang ito sa market. wala pa nga itong patent sa DTI at intellectual property agency ng pinas. bihira itong ma-implement ng common tao. very rare mangyari at kapag na-witness mo ito, it's a big event at pwede ka ng mag-wish. dapat activated ang peripheral vision mo to witness it.

to master this craft is to own the title of ultimate hearthrob.. on the way na siya sa estadong ito. kailangan nya lng ng tamang timing sa paggamit ng sandwich strategy...

dapat alam nya kung kelan dapat gamitin ang blank stare, ang malagkit na stare, ang mulawin stare, ang ice drop stare, perfect peripheral vision. at iba..

dapat malaman na rin nya kung kelan gagamitan ang legs. kung kelan dapat ipakita ang muscle definition, kung kelan dapat isara at ibuka kpag katapat ang kinakarir na tao.

timing at gut feel ang mga essential tools para maging ultimate hearthrob at guru ng Sandwich Method of Flirting.

sina joey at paz, si tiffany, maya at toni..

(from top to bottom: maya, toni, tiffany, paz and joey)

dami akong friends from the advertising world. mga real friends ko. up to now we are still in touched. dami namin pinagsamahan. saya. pressures. failures. disappointments. triumphs. gulo. takipan at pagtotolerate ng mga trip at secret crimes ng bawat isa, etc...

si joey. ang tandem ko sa mga events that my previous company has mounted. magaling at professional. he got a girlfriend in tow for 7 years and they had a daugthter. ayaw nya pakasal. pabor sya sa live in forever. he felt that change is infinite and kung darating ang time na magbago sya or magbago ang partner nya, madaling mag-move out sa love nest nila at mag-move on without any legal battle. sya ata ang isa sa nag-influence sa akin na maging allergic sa commitment at marriage. kahit anung pilit ng gf nya "say no to marriage" ang response ni joey. may trauma ata sa marriage coz he was a product of a broken home. he's committed to his work as an event specialist. kung si tim yap ang eventologist si joey naman ang reliable event manager for me and my bosses..dose-dosenang events ang pinagsamahan namin ni joey.big events..small events o simpleng promotional campaign e tandem kami.. dahil sa pagsasama namin, masasabi kong malaki ang effect nun sa perception ko about life, career at having a commitment (which i find less interesting as of now)..presently, wala na sila ng gf nya. the girl is living on her own. joey lives with his daughter and a yaya. totoo nga na dumating na ang time that both of them have changed and decided to take different paths. si joey opted to stay single and remained as one of the best event planners sa industry.. the ex-gf opted to find a man whom she will live happily ever after with a marriage contract. last time ko nakita si joey e 2007 pa pero malalim ang friendship namin. di nya alam na naging parang ako na sya pagdating sa perception tungkol sa heart matters. kung di ko kaya nakilala si joey, magiging live-in material pa rin b ako o future ideal partner? sabi ni joey, hindi naman sya katoliko at hindi sya isang babaeng nabuntis out of wedlock na pilit na gustong ipakasal ng ultra conservative Catholic family nito...e hindi sya ganun e. so walang reason para magpakasal. anu ba plano ni joey? ang huling usap namin e..mag-save for the future para sa kanyang retirement at sa kinabukasan ng daughter nya. hmmm, wla pa talagang balak mag-asawa ang tandem ko. live in forever at companionship lang ang only option nya just in case na ma-inlove ulet.

kung si joey ang tandem ko sa events..si paz naman ang fave account executive ko sa mundo ng magazines at broadsheets. medical practitioner turned account executive si paz. single ang status pero may boyfriend and a loved child. mistress sya ng pamilyadong bf. lagi nyang hinaing sa amin e pagod na raw sya sa ganitong setup pero kapag sya naman ang inuwian ng bf nya e nakakalimutan nya ang lahat ng hinaing nya tungkol sa relasyon nya rito. she feels that she deserves more though she always accepts the little time his bf can offer to her and to their child. alam nyang second priority lng sya. pero happy naman daw sya (minsan, dahil minsan lang sya uwian). pero madalas, she aspires for more coz she knows naman what she deserves in the first place. sabi nga ni paz when you love a person it doesn't matter kung kung gaano kahaba ang oras na ibinibigay sau ng mahal mo.. ang importante e nabibigyan ka pa rin ng konting panahon. sa konting panahon na naibibigay e winner na rin yun para sa isang mistress. bkit winner? dahil kung wla ng time for you ang tao, ang mistress na dating 2nd priority lng e magiging 3rd priority pa. loser na yun kung nagkataon. si paz pa naman e goal driven. career oriented at fighter. kung di nya makuha ang gusto lumalaban pa rin. at dahil she knows what she deserves, nakikipag-date pa rin sya sa iba. merong single, merong pamilyado, malakas talaga sya sa pamilyado (at lesbians). ayaw rin pakasal ni paz. ok sya sa companionship. cool sya sa idea na dapat may quality time (once in a while) sila ng partner nya kahit di pa sya ang uuwian nito. maybe she accepted the fact that she's not the marrying type. mid-30's na sya so slim na ang chance to meet a guy na single at willing magpakasal sa isang unwed mom with an ongoing relationship sa isang married man. the last time i heard about her, nasa dubai na sya with a new guy of her life. nag-move on na nga at na-realized nyang she could start a new life sa tamang way. good thing single si new bf. there's a big improvement on her decision making. pero wala pa rin syang plan to get married. live in pa rin ang favorable setup for her in dubai..

si tiffany e pretty girl. prudukto ng isang exclusive school for girls. she's my assistant sa previous work. we're very close. ma-appeal. back then, she had a bf for almost 5 years..at may ka-on din na lesbian at the same time for more than a year. bisex si tiffany. at ako lang ang nakakaalam sa opis since kami ang magka-eded. her ex bf wants to get married na coz he's stable financially at sobrang tagal na nila. however, she was not ready yet or maybe she was torn with her complex relationships. she didn't know kung cnu sa bf or gf ang matimbang. she was also dating other guys that she met sa mga events namin. iba si tiffany sa lahat. i was her partner in crimes of passion. i even joiend her to go out of town coz her lesbian lover wants to introduce her to the family. so gumawa kmi ng bogus na event. we made palabas to everyone that we attended an event organized by our media partner. nakalusot naman. 3 days yun. si tiffany and her lesbow lover e nagbond ng sobra. ako ang iskorer (hehehe) at naka-relax rin naman away from our demanding and slave-driver bosses. di nagtagal e nabuking din sya ng mom nya. pinag-overnight nya kasi si lesbow gf sa haws nila and they slept in her room. the following day, without their knowledge, tiffany's mom arrived unannounced after the mom went to church (one sunday moring), nahuli sila na kissing and hugging. ayun na-confront ang dalawa at dun na naputol ang same sex affair ng friend ko. presently, wla na cla ng bf nya for 5 years. yung former lesbow lover nya e nasa middle east na at camel na ata ang gustong ka-trip (hehehe). NEWS: tiffany just delivered a baby girl somewehere in south courtesy of her fling na eventually ay napakasalan sya. happy naman sya coz tahimik na raw ang buhay nya. pero she clarified na nagpapahinga lng sya at wait and see lng raw ako. hindi yun banta kundi reminder nya that she's still the same person i have known and learned to accept and to love.

si maya, ang tanging naiwan sa mga demanding kong bosses. naiwan namin sya ni tiffany dun. sya na ngaun ang go to girl ng kumpanya. she's handling the entire operations. big time! she deserves it. she's a loyal employee. 10 years and counting...hapi naman sya pero just recently gusto na nya makipaghiwalay sa husband nya for 5 months. irreconcilable differences raw. showbiz! wala daw cla quality time together. she claims, the guy always ingnores her and she feels that she is not his top priority. ganito si maya kapag may di nakuhang gusto, feeling nya ini-ignore sya. for her, break-up ang sagot para mai-communicate nya na the tampo she's hiding or the pain that she really can't express. minsan, nagkita kami for a merienda somewhere then we met his hubby afterwards (na tropa ko na rin). after dinner, hinatid na ako ni hubby malapit sa area ko. si hubby nag-vent. he claims, maya wants a separation but he does not agree with the girl's proposal. sabi ni hubby, heloves the girl so much at the reason why maya is asking for a separation is hindi pa sya over sa ex nyang gwapo pero silahista (raw!). the ex bf naman daw keeps on communicating to maya and in fairnness to her, honest naman sya kay hubby that her ex is trying to settle the unfinished business. the ex bf got married sa isang older woman na naka-based sa spain. bigtime na rin si ex bf pero mukha pa ring silahis. si ex bf ay super invite kay maya to visit spain and he's willing to sponsor her kung gusto nya mag-stay for good..eto raw ang rason kung bakit feeling ni guy e gusto syang hiwalayan ni maya..alam kong over na si maya. even maya has clarified the issue. friends n lng daw cla ni ex pero kung kailangan sya ni ex, she will make sure that nandun sya for the ex bf..tsk..tsk. kumplikado yun.and she agreed. though it was an unfinished business for the ex bf, kay maya, friends na lng tlga. well, good thing, si hubby opted to stick with her. according to him, he's commited to the marriage..si maya di ko pa nakausap ulet. at di pa naman sya nag-complain about her marriage last time i checked...

si toni naman ang pinakabubbly na production manager na nakilala at naging kaibigan ko sa TV industry. she started working in this TV network after graduating college from one of the top universities d2 sa metropolis. she got 2 kids from 2 different boyfriends of her. she doesn't believe in marriage. she's vocal about it and she values her freedom of choice and individuality. she doesn't believe in the power of marriage license. she aspires to become successful in her TV career pero never nyang naging dream ang maging ideal wife..(cguro beautiful partner at mom pwede pa). unfaithful rin si toni. kahit cla pa ni current bf e nakikipagdate pa rin sya. di naman daw bawal coz she's technically a single woman with 2 kids from 2 guys she never wishes to settle down with.she's very modern or shall i say very woman of the world.

eto ang motto nya: kung type nya at type sya go for gold sya. kung type nya at ayaw sya she'll settle for the silver. pero kapag ayaw na nya at gusto pa rin sya..tatansuin na nya ang partner at disappearing act ang final solution.

sila ang mga friends ko.complicated human beings kumpara sa iba. hindi sila perfect pero we jived so well. they taught me a lot. they have influenced my present outlook in life. ngayon ko lang napag-ugnay ang mga dahilan kung bakit ako ganito..dahil sila ang mga kaibigan ako.. at kami ay pwedeng ilagay sa iisang kategorya (non-commital society, marriage defficiency syndrome, major intimacy issues gang)..

the most happening places...then and now

mid 90's - mars disco (d2 nasimulang magloko si jackie forster kay benjie paras at d2 rin madalas magwala si alma concepcion before her arrest becoz of drug possession sa guam airport), limits (nagtapos ang spunk ng disco haws na ito sa gale) , whereelse (ang hub ng mga elitistang durugista), ZU (bar ng mga dating famous sa society..pre tim yap and celine lopez era)

late 90's - phenomena (trying to become the new ozone), hard rock (para sa coño studes and yuppies), streetlife (yuppies frequent party venue, d2 nakilala si mocha, watering holes (ang bahay ni dolly ann carvajal kung san lagi syang high)...fat willy's (nauso ang ledge dancers)

early 2000's- friends at the square (party venue ni anne curtis (her rebellious years), insomnia (para sa mga high), 78 orange (para sa gusto ng kakaibang high), olive (78 orange revived), malate (binuhay ng mga bading ang nakpil at adriatico) ..suburbia (teritoryo ng side A)..

2002- eastwood (pang-high school crowd now), basement (para sa undergound party animals) , blue onion (rnb and hiphop lovers), gb2 (pa-coño crowd), venezia (venue ng elite and mga trying hard maging fake scions), dreambar (the defunct ZU and now, the tony boy cojuanco's quisine)....dish (from rockwell to abs-cbn..forgettable), virgin cafe (venue ng mga parties mounted by various local glossies), famous bar (para sa mga famous at di famous..i just fell in love sa stressed cheesecake nila)..restaurant 12 (d2 ni-launch si lucky manzano as human image model), spirits (cayote girls are just very wild)..

2003- pravda (trillo family's contribution to the party genreration), gb 3 (it is not famous w/o ice vodka and the cinema) wasabi (wla me masabi!)

2005 to present- metrowalk (balwarte ng call center pips), embassy (drugs and violence), rock candy (victim of glorietta bombing, nalugi si JAY-R), a-venue (upcoming), warehouse (still driven after the big fish break up), ascend (ascending)..

i love to age

mature na ako. eto ay sariling opinyon ko. medyo nag-tame na ako sa pagiging sociable and people person. i want an intimate crowd. kung dati sa eskwela gusto ko ng isang malaking grupo kpg may gimik.. ngaun mas gusto ko ang exclusive type of relaxation. mas calm. mas may privacy. mas kilala ang mga kausap. mas totoo ang bawat isa.

kung dati partygoer ako. ngaun tinatanggihan ko na ang bawat invite na bigay ng warehouce, nbc at yung event team ni avi siwa. i want to relax during my vacant time. i want to breathe. i don't want to exhaust myself too much. i'm not getting any younger. but i'm still part of the youth sector, i know..

ok na ako sa coffee vendo ng nescafe, o sa pure vanilla ng coffee bean at ang deserts ng UCC. di ko type tumambay sa starbucks dahil daming tao lalo na kung sweldo..

trivia: mas maraming tao ang nag-iistarbucks kapag sweldo...hehehehe..kpg di pa sweldo..nagvevendo cla.

parang jollibee na ang starbucks. it's everywhere. unlike coffee bean..mas exclusive. mas comfortable. mas may privacy.

cool na for me ang beach or mag stroll sa mall na di matao like edsa shang , powerplant and podium. ayoko na sa glorietta, gale at mega dahil parang laging midnight madness kahit umaga.

being calm, prefers an intimate crowd and enjoys privacy...eto na ang sign of aging..na dati e hindi ko iniisip coz i really loved the nightlife before..well, it is a phase that i am enjoying now. and i don't miss the old tiring and intoxicating times. mature na e. i'm just loving to age with wisdom.